Tuesday 01/09/2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Okay, let's talk about my September of which one of the most difficult times in my life.

You know this donut won't taste as delicious as it is if I know what was install for me for the next 2 weeks.

Assisting my colleague for the hand-over of the first project that I helped to handle when I just joined the procurement team.

After a long morning at work and the perut pun lapar lah. I picked up my wife from her office and went to Pondok Sari Wangi in Serusop for our lunch.

Awalnya my wife kan mau menapau from eatwell at Gadong Properties. Sadly the booth awal tutup sekali kami atu berpikir balik balik di mana kan makan. Sekali menoleh tia arah kadai steamboat so let's have our dinner here. Then family sister in-law ku join us for dinner.

My wife is going for a tahlil function so sampat tah kami bermain sekajap sama Aileen Mikhayla. Then suddenly my dad called me telling my that my mom is very sick that she started to hallucinate. I spoken to her and her voice was so weak. So I thought screw this I'm rushing back to kb.

I'm telling you this was probably to date the longest drive I ever have to make. Makin memacut makin batah rasanya. When I arrived my mom was half awake but she did took panadol and drink something sweet because according to my family she didn't get to eat anything. 

After half an hour her conditions improved and I thought okay Alhamdulillah hopefully tomorrow would be just alright.

Til my next post. Stay safe Everyone!

-W-

Wednesday 02/09/2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Tuesday and my goodness, this was one of the toughest days in my life.

Honestly, I really wanted to take a day off today. Last night's emergency trip really took a toll on me emotionally. But then I remembered that I had work and online training to attend hence why I need extra coffee just to keep my energy up.

I was totally overwhelmed with the tasks at work. I just had to attend my online training at my desk. That took a good 2 hours than late in the afternoon my dad called me up that my mom still raving in her sleep and took a while to respond. So I told my dad if makin teruk bawa tia ke hospital panggil tia ambulance.

I was entertaining the girls when my family group WhatsApp just exploded with messages. My sister shared photos of my mom being carried down into the ambulance.

So I called out my wife and both of us left for KB. Halfway through we received a call from my sister that my mom has been transferred to the ICU ward because her condition was not good at all.

According to the doctor, she had a very bad infection on her lungs that it develop pneumonia. Worse her blood oxygen level was critically low and when the doctor told me that my mom needs a ventilator just to help her breathing, my heart sank.....

He did explain that the ventilator helps to improve her blood oxygen level and let's just hope the medication helps her to fight off the infection. By now there is nothing more we can do but to pray and tawakkal as no doubt that right now she is in god's hand.

Till next post. Stay safe everyone!

-W-

Thursday 03/09/2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Hari ani aku malar menangis. In fact, I didn't get a good night's sleep. Frequently waking up in the middle of the night checking my phone. And then in the morning, my dad called me up. I was about to break down when I heard my dad's voice. He just called me to ask for advice as the Dr. seek our family permission if they can do a small incursion between my mom's shoulder and neck join.

Why? Well since the medication that they're going to give my mom is so strong that big chances it would damage the small arteries on her hand. And when that happens they will need to insert the needle at a different part which can end up hurting my mom even more.

By doing this incursion not only it will be on the main artery which can withstand the medicine dosage. Also at the same time, it can travel faster. I gave my consent and so did everyone.

This long drive to KB really took its toll on me. Arrived in KB just after lunch time. Nda jua dapat kan jalan awal since ICU visiting hours are limited. So by the time I got to see her I hold my tears. I mean you guys can see how she looked like when she was just being put on her hospital bed. 

This would be the first time I got to see her since last night of which felt like forever. Seeing her being put on a ventilator and with wires and tubes hanging on her body. She looked so helpless and weak. After a few mins, I left her bed and find a quiet corner. Silently I let go of my tears. I just couldn't hold it back.

We had our lunch in KB town. All of us were starving but our lunch talk was awkward.

So when I shared the news about my mom being admitted to ICU the amount of doa, well wishes was overwhelming. Friends and colleagues all contacted me and I just can't thank them enough. Then one of my colleagues from work texted me asking if it is ok for them to held a sunat hajat prayer for my mom. And when she said this photo I broke down and cried. Gosh, this is really emotional for me. I cried back then and I shed a few tears while typing this.

Thank you, Allah, even when you test us with this yet you still shower us with love. You show us that even in a difficult time there will be people who want the best for you. Thank you Allah.

And to all of them. You will always be in my prayer and I am forever grateful.

Another sunset in KB from the ICU waiting corridor. Sending prayers so my mom can recover well.

Also tonight was tahlil night so my mom's sibling are also holding a solat sunat hajat for my mom.

Holding my mom's hand while I whispered to her ears telling her to stay strong and urging her to get well soon. I told her about the number of people who sent out well wishes. She is so loved.

We went to Chicken King Restaurant for dinner. I silently ate my dinner not trying to that one empty seat next to my dad. Apparently, he realizes it too. =(

Til my next post. Stay safe everyone!

-W-

Friday 04/09/2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Friday in Kb. We stayed the night and masih jua alum nyaman tidur. Malar terbangun then terus check my hp. In the morning pun taus taus hp dicari. Asal saja mendgr bunyi hp taus kabak2 jantung2.

So that morning sambil sambil nunggu tengah hari. Taus tah kami laki bini keluar for breakfast then get our laundry done. 

It's been awhile since aku sembahyang di masjid Jamalul alam, KB Town. And then yang siuknya, the imam nya was the imam di masjid Kg Pandan dulu. So knowing alunan fatihahnya memang aku mudah cair. In fact last night both my dad and myself sembahyang di sini. Payah banar kan khusyuk apalagi bila menganang my mom di icu. Mendangar alunan bacaan fatihah nya lagi bercucuran bah air mata ku. 

Menyampati melawat my mom after solat Jumaat then knowing everyone will be hungry. My wife and I went to Seria for nasi katok hunting. Not bad lah guys the nasi katok aaa.

Then in the evening, we went back to the hospital, and then when my wife was in the midst of reciting surah yassin next to my mom's bed. Suddenly she woke up. ALHAMDULILLAH. Still weak and struggling to speak she was crying in pain. I looked at the nurse counter when I saw their reaction was calm and I whispered to myself alhamdulillah my mom just finally awakes.

The best feeling ever although seeing her crying pain was not easy. Dad was struggling too. At first, she started to write the word on her chest then we gave her a pen and paper. So I called up the nurse that my mom told us that she is in quite a lot of pain because of the ventilator hence she told us that she gonna gave her some pain killer and told us to just let her rest.

Relief guys!

Driving back home to bandar feeling absolute relief. Before the visiting hour ended we managed to get hold of my mom's doctor. He told me with a smile that my mom is recovering well. If her conditions improve she will be no longer needing to use the ventilator machine.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah.

-W-

Saturday 05/09/2020

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Saturday and time to get some sleep. My wife told me she has told her sister to pick her up early in the morning. Thankful for that.

In the afternoon, I went to happy dean Jerudong for lunch and that was good.

Balik dari ngambil my wife from work. Taus tah ku singgah at one of the burger stall. Craving ku bah kan burger sekali ku order lah burger daging + ayam + telor. Aku atu kan mau support local bah but the quality of the burger was just so kesian lah. Nda ku mau kan ckp teruk sal kang mcm kan menjatuhkan bisnes org. Although they claimed the patty was homemade. The quality was just not there. 

Even worse the chicken patty was bad. When I had my first bite, the patty tasted familiar. Then ku cuba lagi taus ku terkanang. Haiyo this tasted like bakso balls! I had a looked at it and confirmed they used bakso balls as chicken patty...........

Menyamal ku taus atu kan aku atu tais liur banar. So last last ke Sg Kebun kami. My wife had soto for dinner and I just enjoyed a hot glass of teh susu.

Later on, we received news from KB. Nda kami melawat tonight. Sadar ya and she wrote a little message. Asking us to continue berdoa for her. Suruh sedakah food untuk nurse di ICU and then yang mahalnya bertanya if my uncle marah hehehe babu babu.

Til my next post. Stay safe everyone!

-W-