Being Home Alone Again At Home.. And I Think This Is One Of The Best Time For Me To Do A Lengthy Post.. Biar Kamu Keboringan Membaca.. Hahaha So How Was Your Raya Has Been Going On.. Its Now The 7th Day Of Raya And Like We Always Say... Nda Terasa.. Somehow I Dare To Say My 1st Week Of Raya Is Somehow A Dull One.. I Can Count How Many House I have Visited Since The First Day Of Raya And I Do Believe I Only Visited About 12 Houses.. Cousins And Friends Included Hahahah Atu Sedikit Antah Lah Somehow I Just Got Lazy To Go Out And Beraya.. And I Am Just Waiting For Everybody To Text Me Up Saying Malam Ani Tani Kan Beraya Ke Rumah Si Anu Anu And Anu.. Just Like Tahun-Tahun Yg Sudah..
Mun Ku Kan Beraya Sorg Pun Arah Siapa Kan Ku Tuju.. Rumah Siapa Kan Ku Langgar.. Galat Jua Rasanya.. Mun Umah Laki2 Kali Nda Jua Apa2.. Mun Umah Bini2 Kang Ada Perindungan Durang Mikir Aku Kan Minang Anak Durang Haha Astaaaa Menyimpang.. Nda Bertantu Bercakap.. Anyway One Of The Reason Why I Hardly Go Out Beraya Especially With My Family Member Is Tu Nah That Long Dreading Question That I Hated The Most.. Bilatah Kan Kawinnya Ni.. Umur Tentu Udah Tu Kawinnya Bila.. If I'm Single Then I Don't Really Mind Those Kind Of Question But I Just Got Off From A Relationship And The Sting Is Still There And Everytime I'm Being Asked Those Kind Of Questions.. All Those Memories Comes Running Back..
Some Said Mencari Tah Yang Baru Wadi.. Ko Liat Your Past.. Dah Ada Pengganti And So Lovey Dovey Lagi.. Why Can't You Get A New One.. And I Just Give A Cold Smirk And Walks Away.. So Here I Am Trying To Lay Out What Ive Been Holding On To For Quite Sometime.. So What If My Past Has Now Move On And Found A New Guy And Go All Mushy And Lovey Dovey And Such.. It Is Her Right.. We Are Not Together Anymore REMEMBER.. And Just Because She Has Found A New Guy That I Have To Find A New Guy Just To Show Around That I Can Find A New Gal Too..?? Is That It? No! That Is Just Dumb And Childish.. This Is The Real Reason.. I'm Not Interested To Find A New Love Is Because I'm Still Trying To Heal My Myself From The Pain.. The Frustration.. The Disappointment.. And For All Those Hopes That I Wished For That Came Down Crushing.. I Am Not The Kind Of Person Who Broke Up Today And Find A New Girl Tomorrow.. I Ain't Built Like That..
When I Said I Love You To Her, When I Said I Misses Her, When I Said I Really Care For Her And When I Said That She Means The World To Me I Really Really Do Mean It.. Even When Others Say I Told You So.. Told You To Be Careful.. When Others Trying To Ruin Our Relationship.. I Hang On To It Even By Doing So I Got Hurt Over And Over And Over And Over Again.. Why Would I Not Hang On To It When My Parents Are Blessing Our Relationship.. And When That Happen.. You Started To Tell Yourself This It Is.. She Is The One.. You Begin To Dream For That Moment.. I Wouldn't Even Want To Ask Myself Why I Love Her.. Why I Miss Her.. Why I Accept Her.. Because If I Asked Myself With Those Questions.. Then All This While I'm Just A Fraud.. Just Plain Lying To Her And Worse Myself And To Be Honest That Is Just Plain Insulting Saying I Love You Today And When The Relationship Broke You Start To Question Yourself ?? Idiocrisy.. And If I Was Force To Answer That Question.. Then My Answer Is Simple.. Because I Am Willing To Accept Her.. Because I Choose To Love Her And Because I Want To Give Her Half Of My Heart..
But If Y'all Think By Me Writing This Is My Way Of Asking Her To Comeback Then Y'all Got It Wrong Tenfold.. I Do Not Wish For It And I Know Too Damn Sure Who Won't Even Think About It.. So For Now Let Me Heal Myself.. And I Thank All My Friends Who Gave Me Advices And Support Heh.. And If Felt In Love With Every Person Who Gave Me Advices And Support Then I Would Be In Love With More Than One Person Heh.. I'm Not Gonna Say That If I Meet Someone Tomorrow That I Won't Be Wanting To Be In A Relationship.. But For Now Let Me Heal Myself.. Mau Kasi Itu Luka Kering Dulu.. Kemudian Itu Scar Mau Kasi Gosok Sama Lotion Biar Ada Smooth Sikit.. Hehehe
Mun Ku Kan Beraya Sorg Pun Arah Siapa Kan Ku Tuju.. Rumah Siapa Kan Ku Langgar.. Galat Jua Rasanya.. Mun Umah Laki2 Kali Nda Jua Apa2.. Mun Umah Bini2 Kang Ada Perindungan Durang Mikir Aku Kan Minang Anak Durang Haha Astaaaa Menyimpang.. Nda Bertantu Bercakap.. Anyway One Of The Reason Why I Hardly Go Out Beraya Especially With My Family Member Is Tu Nah That Long Dreading Question That I Hated The Most.. Bilatah Kan Kawinnya Ni.. Umur Tentu Udah Tu Kawinnya Bila.. If I'm Single Then I Don't Really Mind Those Kind Of Question But I Just Got Off From A Relationship And The Sting Is Still There And Everytime I'm Being Asked Those Kind Of Questions.. All Those Memories Comes Running Back..
Some Said Mencari Tah Yang Baru Wadi.. Ko Liat Your Past.. Dah Ada Pengganti And So Lovey Dovey Lagi.. Why Can't You Get A New One.. And I Just Give A Cold Smirk And Walks Away.. So Here I Am Trying To Lay Out What Ive Been Holding On To For Quite Sometime.. So What If My Past Has Now Move On And Found A New Guy And Go All Mushy And Lovey Dovey And Such.. It Is Her Right.. We Are Not Together Anymore REMEMBER.. And Just Because She Has Found A New Guy That I Have To Find A New Guy Just To Show Around That I Can Find A New Gal Too..?? Is That It? No! That Is Just Dumb And Childish.. This Is The Real Reason.. I'm Not Interested To Find A New Love Is Because I'm Still Trying To Heal My Myself From The Pain.. The Frustration.. The Disappointment.. And For All Those Hopes That I Wished For That Came Down Crushing.. I Am Not The Kind Of Person Who Broke Up Today And Find A New Girl Tomorrow.. I Ain't Built Like That..
When I Said I Love You To Her, When I Said I Misses Her, When I Said I Really Care For Her And When I Said That She Means The World To Me I Really Really Do Mean It.. Even When Others Say I Told You So.. Told You To Be Careful.. When Others Trying To Ruin Our Relationship.. I Hang On To It Even By Doing So I Got Hurt Over And Over And Over And Over Again.. Why Would I Not Hang On To It When My Parents Are Blessing Our Relationship.. And When That Happen.. You Started To Tell Yourself This It Is.. She Is The One.. You Begin To Dream For That Moment.. I Wouldn't Even Want To Ask Myself Why I Love Her.. Why I Miss Her.. Why I Accept Her.. Because If I Asked Myself With Those Questions.. Then All This While I'm Just A Fraud.. Just Plain Lying To Her And Worse Myself And To Be Honest That Is Just Plain Insulting Saying I Love You Today And When The Relationship Broke You Start To Question Yourself ?? Idiocrisy.. And If I Was Force To Answer That Question.. Then My Answer Is Simple.. Because I Am Willing To Accept Her.. Because I Choose To Love Her And Because I Want To Give Her Half Of My Heart..
But If Y'all Think By Me Writing This Is My Way Of Asking Her To Comeback Then Y'all Got It Wrong Tenfold.. I Do Not Wish For It And I Know Too Damn Sure Who Won't Even Think About It.. So For Now Let Me Heal Myself.. And I Thank All My Friends Who Gave Me Advices And Support Heh.. And If Felt In Love With Every Person Who Gave Me Advices And Support Then I Would Be In Love With More Than One Person Heh.. I'm Not Gonna Say That If I Meet Someone Tomorrow That I Won't Be Wanting To Be In A Relationship.. But For Now Let Me Heal Myself.. Mau Kasi Itu Luka Kering Dulu.. Kemudian Itu Scar Mau Kasi Gosok Sama Lotion Biar Ada Smooth Sikit.. Hehehe
True To The Bone!
RicHteR
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